- EmPtY - (transfered from friendster blog,20/9/05)

At this moment..my mind is still empty…ya..i am not really happy indeed… I dunno wat’s going on with me..perhaps..i know..i cant stand with the loneliness which spread all over me..n I cried stupidly… I said..i wan to go back home..bcoz of homesick ?? maybe not really…I feel like going home everytime when I get hurts…I need cares from the ppl I care..n when loneliness comes to me..i feel like me myself standing at the town alone..n nobody cares for me…going back home..i think of this…at least..i know..my family members will always care for me…in everything I do… I cant walk…I can talk..i can smile..n I can even laugh steadily like usual with my frens…but when the loneliness arrives to me..i stop walking..stop talking..stop smiling n stop laughing…I am lost at the moment…where I just feel like crying…n I cry…to release the unhappiness that stay in my heart… I am tired…n feeling headache man..maybe cos of not enough sleep…but I am feeling better now..after the talk..after the thinking…n after the crying…perhaps…I should stop thinking..it’s hard..but I got to do..cos I dun wan some1 to c me like this..n makes him feel sorry n stress… eventhough I dunno when the loneliness will come to me again…n I will feelings lost n crying stupidly again… But at this moment…I told…or force me myself dun to think anything else…just take a good rest…cos nothing for me to wait til morning again..hehe..good nitezzzz…and…let it be…………………………and i hope i can do it....